Today I was going out of town to teach a corporate class on an address that seemed very familiar. When I arrived, I realized that I used to work next door to this company, many moons ago. The place hadn’t change much, but I on the other hand, seem to have lived 3 different lifetimes since then!
As I sat down in my car, I took myself back in time and I remembered it all so well: a life and job that caused me so much stress, the physical and mental pain, working too much, drinking too much, and numbing It all with as many distractions as I could get my hands on… And here I was, all these years later about teach a Yoga class to celebrate Mental Health Day! How did this even happen?
I've probably cried on this car park before, but now they were tears of gratitude (is there even a thing?), of appreciation for all that was and, above all, all that is right now!
Most days I still feel like I haven’t earned or deserved how far I’ve come, the peace and safety I feel daily, the opportunities I keep being given. But today, I saw this moment as gift from the universe, a gentle nudge that said: “You’re doing great, kiddo!” ✨
On the way back I felt pulled towards stopping before heading home. A few minutes away from this place there is a beautiful nature reserve that I used to drive past twice a day everyday for as long as I worked there, but somehow never felt like I could afford the time to stop. I saw it every day, but I was too busy, too stressed or too distracted and I told myself that someday I would stop. Time went by and that day never came…Until today!
So I stopped, finally giving myself the gift of time. Everything seemed to have some kind of beauty filter on, and I kept being flooded with gratitude and wonder! I managed to take few pictures before my phone died (another gift from the universe, I guess) and so I kept walking and wandering, and being.
And then for a moment I wasn’t sure if I had veered off the course so when I saw someone coming in the opposite direction, I asked if I was on the right path. The lady told me I was, but that I was also a long way from there. To which I said: “That’s ok, as long as this is taking me where I need to be”. The lady replied in a tone that probably sounded a lot wiser and mystical in my head than what she intended: “It will… eventually”
So I kept going and I knew the lesson was there in front of me:
The path you’re on will take you where you need to be…. eventually! And even though you might be a long way from there, you’ve already covered so much distance, so keep walking, keep showing up, keep trusting. You can ask for directions, look around for signs, take break, a nap, a child’s pose… but you have to keep going, because if you do, the path will eventually take you where you are going.
On most days, the distance yet to be covered seems unattainable and the distance already covered feels small and insignificant. But today I remembered the many things I can no longer see when I look back because they are so distant, and so I looked forward with hope!
Can you also take a moment to pause in your path, to look back and see the distance covered, to celebrate that and to look forward with hope? You are doing great! Keep going, keep showing up!
Love,
Ri
P.s I still don’t know how I got this job. Apparently, someone that knows someone that knows someone that recommend me kind of thing. If you are that someone, please raise your hand! I am so grateful to you, what a day 🌟✨
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